we r together on the 3rd may and now we r two months together.. but it seems like a funny relationship, dear, u cant even remember the date, i cried becux i argued with u, every movie i watched i think abt us, it seems like i dont reli love u anymore, i am so tired tht i have to do everything to keep this relationship working, i am a girl, i am strong physically, doesnt mean tht i am mentally strong too, i know u still dont love me, sry i aleays doubt u? u never show me tht u care for me, guys were chasing me, so do girls r chasing u, i never feel be love or to be love by u before, it doesnt matter who r u, i juz reli reli care abt u n me.. i duno how long i still can go on like this ? i never recieved a call from u ? u always wait me to find u, why i see others couple r different ? they r so sweet together, but we ? u knows better than i do, it seems like everything is easy to u, i would like u to coke back and meet me and then giv me a hug and whisper to my ear and say "I LOVE YOU DEAR" i am satisfied til here :) i hope u can make our relationship better than last time and i wish u were here to v me crying ^_^ XOXO love, chelsea

my ring?

so, today is 5th FEB,
i met him the day before this date means 4th,
he came to library to meet me,
and sorta like fun-argued yesterday,
its fun but u r very mengarot :)
u was laughing n smiling so much,
i melted in a second,
when i c u,
i forget everything around me,
i love to c u so much,
do u know tht i am still hoping ?
but,
if one day i stop hoping,
i hope u will realised tht i really love u alot be4 tis :)
we know each other for 7months already,
i think wat we both r doing it is juz dream created by me,
u totally got no response towards me,
i always thought u r mine,
but,
i know i am cheating myself to make myself more happy,
life goes on,
both of us also :)
mayb i really cant win ur heart,
epic fail chelsea :)
find someone who wil nt argue n understands u more than i do,
cares abt u,
will be there for u anytime,
wouldn't make u jealous,
the first day of cny i was really reallysick,
but when i saw ur messages,
i really unhappy?
i dunno why,
when i am sick i really nid,
instead on tht day other ppl keep msg n asked abt me,
u r juz like nothing happen when i said i am sick
u r one of the guys i loved the most :)
after this month,
i will slowly move on,
u too k :)
take care of urself <3
i could not be there always for u,
i belongs to nobody becux i dont want to,
i never delete ur msgs,
unless u asked to,
i nvr lied be4,
Ur name wil always be in my heart :)
dont think abt us already,
slowly u move on :)
u will c one day u wil be happy without me,
i am sad but i wont show it up to u,
mayb be4 this i did,
but u wouldnt care much :)
its ok i will take care of myself

i am blank

hurm,
i dont know wat happen to myself,
i am sick these few days ;)
r u still reading this blog ?
or i am writting it alone without anyone reading it ?
it was stupid :(
23/1/12 is coming,
i am very scared :(
i wan a happy ending :'(
i am no ready if the answer is NO,
i might pain till i dont know wat to say,
i am trying to avoid but i know i will also get the answers,
:)
goodnight paeh

final :)

it comes to ur final months again !
yeahh <3
i am here to pray for ur test or exams?
not only tht, ur health and everything too,
sry i argued wit u the other day,
but i think its juz becux i love you ?
hurmm, oood to hear tht got lots of girl waiting for u answers ;)
i think i am not gonna be tht lucky to have u,
i wan u to care abt me,
if a guy loves a girl, no matter how bz he is,
he will at least send a msg to him :)
how i wish u to be like tht,
haihhhh :(
i got JPJ test tomorrow,
i know u already forgot ;) good 4 u, bye

miss u more than know

=( sorry
i didnt want to stay :(
but every time i wanna walk away,
u will be here :)
i juz feel tht i need u so much,
5/12/11, talked in the phone,
hurm,
it was cool,
i juz know i misses ur voice,
and yahh,
i dunno when u can be sweet :(
j juz wanna go away :'(

hehe

heeee~~~ i misses euu so much <3
i sleep alot over here <3
no worries at all !
all i have to do is sleep =)
isnt it cool ?
how r u ?
doing good ?
^_^

1/12/11

aihh, today was the 5th month i know u =) i was very happy ^_^ but too bad i am in singapore >< couldnt wish us, but i think it will be okay for u, cux we r not couple ;'( sometimes it was really happy to be wit, but high disappointment from u wil be waiting for me to go through, hurmm... i did not blame u for u r late when u eat, but u ate for almost 45mins ? hmm =( i really dont know wat r we up to, but i juz know my heart still loving u like i always do <3 should i go on and wait for u ? or wat should i do ? mayb u r not serious =/