miss u more than know

=( sorry
i didnt want to stay :(
but every time i wanna walk away,
u will be here :)
i juz feel tht i need u so much,
5/12/11, talked in the phone,
hurm,
it was cool,
i juz know i misses ur voice,
and yahh,
i dunno when u can be sweet :(
j juz wanna go away :'(

hehe

heeee~~~ i misses euu so much <3
i sleep alot over here <3
no worries at all !
all i have to do is sleep =)
isnt it cool ?
how r u ?
doing good ?
^_^

1/12/11

aihh, today was the 5th month i know u =) i was very happy ^_^ but too bad i am in singapore >< couldnt wish us, but i think it will be okay for u, cux we r not couple ;'( sometimes it was really happy to be wit, but high disappointment from u wil be waiting for me to go through, hurmm... i did not blame u for u r late when u eat, but u ate for almost 45mins ? hmm =( i really dont know wat r we up to, but i juz know my heart still loving u like i always do <3 should i go on and wait for u ? or wat should i do ? mayb u r not serious =/ 

one more day to go ;)

i didnt get to c u today,
i feel so unhappy,
going sg soon,
cant text wit u anymore,
take care of urself when i am not around,
hurm,
u said we still can chat at fb ?
u online u also wont find me ?
so i dont tink we will chat,
u dont have to find me laa,
haihh,
i noe i gonna miss u lots ;')
i love u :(

UKM

went to UKM ;)
i really thought i can forget everything About u :)
how stupid !
i went there, day and night i was waiting ur msgs,
how much do i have to cry ?
how can i make u stay ?
i have fun a lot over there,
but my mind and heart is not in the camp at all,
i know for u is diff,
u dont even mind.. mayb u do?
i dont know,
becux u never show :)
first dy when i reached,
i already become popular :)
becux when the president asked " who can lead for girls "
and yeahh, my name is been called up ;)
and later another vice president gave speeches abt UKM life,
u know wat ? he looks exactly like u MFMF ;')
everywhr i go,
i will c u !
why ?
in the night we have ice breaking, its cool ;)
we play group booming ! ^_^
the guy who looks like u keep disturb and play wit me :)
hehe,
i am sick tht night,
so i went and sleep at 12am,
i am the earliest among all my friends,
they r making noise but i am sleeping like theres no tomorrow ^_^
second day,
wake up early, exercise wit them and chicken dance too ;)
but he did not come in the morning,
i wanted to c him so much,
juz becux he looks like u,
after tht we had breakfast and we kumpul at the same place,
and later i went to toilet and she locked me inside,
the door was spoiled,
i am locked abt 6 to 7mins,
i keep shouting,
one of the faci rescued me ;)
thanks to him !
but i cried badly and i was very down becux i was too scared,
we did play water games,
in the night got like mlm kebudayaan ;)
i acted,
everyone laughed at my jokes ^_^
feel proud,
he was everywhere i went,
i am actually same group wit him,
but i did not wan ^_^
becux u r still in my mind,
i have lots of fun there !
all the kakak and abang very nice to me,
second day was the last night,
two kakak n him sent me back to my hostel,
i dont have to walk,
heeeee :)
he talked to me alot alot :)
and in a moment i feel it was like u talking to me,
but i told myself its not u,
third day is the day we had to go back ^_^
i talked for the majlis penutup becuz they ask for pandangan,
and i talked !
they r impress ;)
my group won number 2 ^_^
weeeee <3
nice camping ;)

:)

i did not wait for u ystrdy ;)
becux i know msgs woul not come :')
i slept at 8.30pm,
and woke up around 7.30am,
means i slept for 11 hours :)
9 more days to go <3
i am sry tht i wont be by ur side to care u anymore,
i am still in love wit u,
hurmm,
good luck in ur test today my boy :)
u sure can do it ^_^
xoxo
i will pray for u :)

i wan to call u dear :'( how ?

tsk tsk :')
happy day !
now is 6.09am,
wooo,
and i am blogging in the morning ;)
first time when i wake up,
i THINK about YOU,
:) ,
how sweet is ur smile tht always melts me ^_^
hehehe,
good morning dear :)

hmmph, cried again last night

its a day be4 i gonna take my muet exams :'(
i cried, hmmph :(
u told me u need spaces,
i didnt know tht i reli did so bad whenni enter ur life,
11 more days and i wont be around,
u will be happy and free,
i know i am a bored person,
i dont know how to cheer u,
i will wake up from my mistakes :)
hope everything will be alright,
i juz wanna say,
i really do care every liltle single thing u do or done,
:')
<3
for all,
i wan to say,
i starts to LOVE u,
i dont wanna lose u,
so, u take care.

1day

without u one day texting me,
its like last time u told me,
sad and bored,
:)
it really happens to me,
i only can wait u to msg me :)
i <3 u

these few days i juz get to chat wit u :/

i get to chat wit u in FB,
for like not even 5 mins?
when u said bye,
tears rolling down from my cheek,
i feel so pain,
even u said 'nnt i msg u'
i know u wont,
becux u hate me :(
i should dissapear :(
my heart is broken,
i will heal it back.

i am been saying sry to u :'(

i am sry,
today ur fren keep asking me whether i wit u got anything ?
i told him tht i dont like u,
:')
eventhough it is very pain to say tht,
i have to ;')
all becux of u,
u wanted it to be like this,
me...
i am very pain too,
i hurt more than u do,
u never even find me anymore ;'(
ok la,
good night.
i cried again :(
very pain

karaoke !

went karaoke juz now wit a bunch of friends,
i feel so good when i get to sing :)
its like all the problems r not there,
teehee ;)
well,
i remember u said i am a happy go lucky person!
do u still remember ?
and yahh,
its true actually ;)
when i got to chat wit u,
i feel more happy,
its nature,
i cant do anything,
but please forgive me if i have done anything wrong ok ?
sry once again ^_^

i am here to say sry !

i dont know whether u will read it or not,
i am sry if i hurt u,
i didnt know u wil be hurt,
hurm,
i am sry,
but i really want u to stay right beside me,
dont leave,
and dont tht u will hurt,
i am sry,
thankd for forgiving me,
i appreciate it ^_^
i am really sry for wat happen be4,
i need u.

actually...........

i appreciates u alot ;)
even u tell me u still confuse,
i will wait ;)

guitar :)

lame daa xmain gitar utk u dgr :')
i nk main lg,
u nk dgr x ?
hehe,
rindu nk ckp dlm fon,
dgr suara u ;)

OLD MESSAGES

yerrr ;p
when i read back my old messages wit u,
i feel so funny,
only certain i keep,
happy tho !
haha,
u'r so funny !
stay like last time ;)

12/11/11

time passes so fast and already 4 months :),
happy tho !
today wake up early in the morning and texted u,
glad tht u replied,
today is ur bro big day !
yay,
congratz to him,
sry i lied tht i am bz,
i am actually not,
i juz dont wan to disturb u,
but really wish tht we still cn text with each other ;)
today morning i also recieved a msg from fren,
telling me all abt love,
i feel so down :'(
my mood is running away,
u r a patient and not tempered guy that i nvr meet be4,
i started to learn some,
sry paeh :)
i dunno how to care abt u,
i will keep up the oil,
hope u happy always :)

mengaku -.-"

i ngaku i rinduu sgt dkt u :(
blh x i nk jumpe u lg ?
asenyee xlehh da kowt ;)
hehe, 18 ari lg :)
kamu ttp akn berada di ati sye,
u kate u xkn tinggalkn i kn? ;)
i sgt gembira ^_^
kegembiraan yg tidak blh dibayangkn :)
semoga anda dan keluarga selalu sihat :D

budak2 :/

i am budak2,
u r dewasa :),
how ??
any idea ??
;)

i miss u :'(

what on earth is happening,
i feel i very mengarot,
u wan this relation to be true,
i am being true,
juz u dont wan it,
hope i can juz sleep and not wake up from this evil world,
but nth would be easy :(
it is torturing :(
luckily i still have my god brother syg me :),
i cant sleep :(
everynight also canot sleep,
i always wait for u to sleep :(
then i will sleep,
but depends,
if my heartache when i sms wit u,
i choose to sleep,
becux wateva i do,
u wont care :(
becux i noe i am not important,
:'(
everyday i am in pain :(
every single day,
good luck to u,
very happy to c u happy,
even my heart is been poked by a sharp knife,
i am still strong :)
19 more days i wont be around
:) take care

11/11/11

how i wish this date i can be wit u,
even one day its enough,
well,
i dont know wat is wrong wit me,
study hard :)
ask me to be ur gf ?
haha,
how stupid,
impossible,
but if really happens,
i duno wat to say,
becuz too happy :)
hahaha !
*womdering*

wishing is juz a part of my day

wish to go out wit u saturday to meet awhile,
but i guess i cant :)
ur adik is gonna tunang,
congratz to him and family :)
wish everything will go well,
and yahh,
i forget to tell,
i am missing u too much ;>
but sooner,
i will miss u more than u know :)
kayss,
sleep tight !

dont misunderstands

when i say they say i love u,
or miss me,
i never BOTHER,
i am serious :)
kayss :/

i miss u boy :/

all the time u r in my head !
i cant get u out of my head =.="
miss you :)

everything ends on november ?

juz tell me u wan to be together or not,
i will still be here i think,
;)

selamat hari raya aidil adha

sry !!
forget to write it down ;)
once again,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA,
hehes ;)

MFMF

mohd faizzuddin bin mohd faisal ;)
its really a special name for me :)
do u know my full name ?
i bet u dont know,
do u know i love the most other than family?,
its sleeping and eating,
do u know wat i hate the most,
when u r not here wit me when i needed u the most :)
do u know wat i love to do when i am bored?
play guitar and singing even i have a bad voice,
when i am EMO?,
wat would i do ?
do u know ?
i will think abt ur smile then i will smile,
ur SMILE is so awesome and i have to c it,
do u know i am the only child ?
do u remember every single thing of me ?
when is my birthday ?
when i have my ttn ?
when i have my exams ?
when is the time i usually eat ?
wat time i finished school ?
have u ever wanted to know or ask me ?
do u know i am like the peribahasa "perigi mencari timba"
k la, i am very tired,
bye2 << ur favourite words to me

i very scare :( its getting scarier..

i dream abt u everynight,
which i dont know wat to do :(
in the dream we r always close,
why isnt it happening in real life,
sry,
teach me how to quit :'(
dont like it when u say bye2,
nothing is interesting btw me and u anymore,
its not like last time,
nothing like last time :'(
i know we r not from the same race,
u prefer malays,
too bad i am not,
i am sry :'(
i no more strength to cry everday,
how stupid was tht,
every mins i am missing u,
u even sometimes texted me an said " dont wait for me i might forget to text u"
it shows tht i dont really exist,
do u know tht?
i am always talking to myself,
i dunno wat to sms wit u anymore,
u r so COLD,
i wished to be pampered,
why always other guys come and tel me they like me and love me,
why not u ?
haaa ???
why ;'(
everytime sms wit u,
i wish for something nice tht u would say,
i remember once i tell u i merajuk,
u replied and said " pergi merajuk dulu, da abis merajuk we text"
wth was tht ?
no girls wish for tht,
thank you for all this,
i appreciate,
one day if i am lost,
u dont have to find me,
;)
wish u happy always,
i have got no appetite for two days :'(
wat abt tomorrow ?
same thing happen ?
another thing,
when i tegur u to be sweet,
then only u will do it,
why ?
ok fine i know i am not ur girlfriend,
i am very tired,
very stressful,
everything i am doing,
there must be something related to u,
i tried to make myself bz,
but when i pause for a moment,
u will juz appear in my mind :'(
why is this happening to me ?
r u the same too ?
actually i know u r in LOVE,
with another girl,
i know in the end wont be me,
i dont think i am wasting time on u,
all i know is everything i have done is all worth it,
thanks to u 4 everything we have together,
u will always be special in my heart :)
bye mohd faizzuddin bin mohd faisal :')

i need u :( arghh TT

i dont know wat else i can do right now at this time,
i feel tht i needed u so much :(
why r u not by my side ?
i wan to c u again :(
hopefully u can smile when the next time we meet,
i am very down :'(

NO LOSING U :'(

i am very scared :(
i feeling very down,
i know u r reading every single post tht i posted,
i seriously damn syg u :(
or i have to go ?
i guess i ALREADY FOUND A RIGHT GUY :(
i cannot let go,
if i let go i will REGRET,
u seems doesnt care at all,
i was waiting for ur GOOD NIGHT everynight.
i know its silly,
but stil i am waiting :'(
the other night i i said "nyte.tc"
i woke up several times to check up my phones :'(
i am so disappointed,
my heart breaks,
i am very scared,
i wanted to know more abt u,
but it seems like,
u doesnt like it,
i dont know wat else i can do,
u said u wan this relation to be something like perfect if we get to know each other more,
u always telling me u r bz,
i understands,
but..
it seems like u dont understands me,
i wish at least a good morning or good night,
now u r back in KUANTAN,
if i got a choice,
i would wan to meet u everyday,
but i know u will say u r BZ,
i dont know wat to say more,
but i juz cant stop my heart from meting whenever i c u smiling to me,
i love see-ing u smile,
thts why when u come back,
i wan to go out wit u,
i cant juz go out alone wit u,
if my mom found out,
i will die,
becux she dont really allowed me to go out wit guys,
not even chinese boy :)
so,
if she saw me or cousins,
i can say i am dead,
u wont be see-ing me anymore,
i might be ALONE after tht,
so, u said u dont like it when i actually say u look like the guy in the movie,
i apologise here,
i hope u can accept it,
i will MENGALAH only to u,
but i dont know how long i can go on like this,
my LOVE to u is TRUE,
i never play play,
i dont even dare,
but i know u wouldnt care,
u never ask if i eaten my dinner already,
u r much sweeter when i first know u,
u said i am cute,
i am so happy,
but i think u r juz joking,
every single thing abt u,
wat i did,
i not only type in this blog,
i even wrote in down in a book of mine,
i am so tired,
k bye,
have a nice day :)

chelsea loves the bear <3

very pain, and i am crying :'(

i am very sad,
why u treated me like this?
i am sry,
if i am wrong,
i cant stand being hurt,
i know u r bz,
i understands,
i also wan some time from u,
tsk tsk,
why do i fall in love wit u :'(
why, can GOD pls tel me?
i am very pain :(
i dont want anything more,
i am very sad :(
why u still dont understands me,
i only first time crying for a guy tht dont even likes me,
i sucks :(
i have to go,
bye,
i cant stop crying :'(
its so pain..

good

everything i have to lose,
no matter what i do or did,
why do u have to make me cry?
why?
tell me !

if i am being too much

pls tell me :(
i really canot lose u :(
its stupid,
but pls.
I LOVE YOU

sry dear :)

i dont mean to be annoying !
sry =(
this is the first time i am so in LOVE :(
hehe~
i am sry i didnt understands u much,
my fault ya :)
thanks for the movie tonight <3
i really appreciate,
but u did not smile :(

i am sry :)

i have to choose LEAVE or STAY :(
its so hard,
u'r not making any move,
i dont like staying this way,
its torturing me :(
i know u can live without me,
but..
wth !
wth is wrong wit us??
if we cant be together !
can u juz tell ?
dont let me wait?
its not fun!
i seriously effing likes u!
and this SUCKS !
I SUCKS for LIKING a GUY which doesnt even tells he LIKES u!

i really can feel the boredom without u

u have camp for four days :)
everynight i was waiting for u to at least say a GOOD NIGHT,
i dont mind in a short form way or how,
as long as u say it,
but i know it wouldnt happen,
becux it is impossible :)

lalalalalalala~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

bored bored :D
thanks for texting me all guys when i am bored !
i dont even know how u all know tht i am bored on tht time!
u all always msg me on time when i am bored :)
ITS FASCINATING :D

missing you a lot my boy ;)

yeahh ! u already reached ur UTM !
say thanks to the god for letting u reach thr safely <3
i am still worried abt u actually ;)
we r so far from each other,
i am not gonna know wat u r doing:(
yeahh, u seems to be very busy today,
u didnt even tell me,
i waited for u :(
and i dont like it,
i reli dont know how many times i have to tell u,
i thought u were sleeping,
how silly am i ?
now i really cant predict wat u r doing over thr,
i hope tht our heart still close to each other,
texting everyday wif u makes me feel like u r my bf ;)
but HAHA!
it was my stupid thinking,
mighy be future bf ^^
who knows ?
u told me u have been single for 6years,
woahh ! thts long,
u must be very FAITHFUL,
if i got a chance to be wit u,
i guess i am the lucky one rite ?
haihh,
but still u tell me u r in a trauma condition,
when all thia gonna stop ?
r u ok?
sorry dear, sometime u might not be happy with the way i texted,
but all this happen juz becux of my JEALOUSY,
i hope u can understand,
sry tht i tried to make u jealous,
i wanna c u r jealous or not,
ppl said when a boy is jealous over u,
means tht he likes and cares abt it !
and lastly u admitted ht u r jealous,
thank you mohd faizzuddin,
i wan my birthday gift to be u ?
can i ?
hahas,
yeah yeah i noe u gonna ask me to stop DREAMING !
hehes,
but still its hard for me not to miss u ;)
at least u told me tht u miss me, better than nothing right ?
haha, u r so cute wheneer i looked at ur pictures =x
pls dun perasan ><

sryyy :(

i wanna giv u something tht u can keep,
thought of giving u my ring :)
but dunno why i feel weird ;?
actually i also dunno wat am i thinking;)
but i know tht i like u,
tht wont change, abt 18mins more gonna be saturday,
means the date u r going back to UTM to study,
u must studyy hardd ahh !
so next time i can be proud of u :)

birthdayyyy coming ;)

;) hope tht day would be a happy day ^^
hahas ;)
i am gonna eat a lot !
and another thing,
sry tht i am fat ;)
u might feel uncomfortble wit me ;)
fat and thin very hard to get togther,
i am sry ;)
i am trying to diet,
sry..

cant believe

until today u still think tht i love or like u for fun,
thank you :)
if u really thinks like tht,
why would i still wanna wait,
its better i let go earlier right if i play play ?
sry ;(
why i like u so much ;(
urghhh !

what am i thinking ?

i seriously thinks tht u actually do like me more than a fren,
hahas !
sry perasan sekejap ;p
erm, well,
theres a lot of replacement for u,
but i cant do it :(
becux i seriously is in love right now
urghh,
why u told ur mom abt we sms la ?
aiyoo i am nervous man !
and yeah tomorroe is friday and finally saturday
my dearest will be going back UTM
sad sad ;')
gonna miss u,
even u xsyg me ;)
its ok la, i noe u also wont sayang me,
if u do also i paksa u :)
sry ya my dear !
i dont mean it ^^

haahahha ! jealous

xsangka u jealous ahh ;D
takot i got another one ^^
eeeeee ;0
u makes me happy tho !
should ask u to urut my jari ><
ahahaha ;)

aiyaaaa !

i am backk ;)
hahahaha !
ehh ! thanks belanja me drinkss and makin jokes ah :/
funny man ;p
my dear ;)

aiyaaaa !

BLOG CLOSED

thanks for letting me to c u again on sunday ;)
hehes ;)
mood always grew beter after seeing u (:

very syg u ah :(

sry, not tht i wanna shut down this blog,
is tht i thinks tht this blog is not important btw u and me anymore :(
u know how much i cares for u?
CAN U PLS AT LEAST TELL ME YOU LIKE ME ANOT?
can u juz give a TEXT to me ?
my heart really getting pain and i wanna cry :(
if u wanna be single 4ever, juz tel,
i let u go ok ?
i cant sleep for nights,
remember the other day u went for futsal ?
u told me?
i was awake i dont wanna reply,
i am angry,
i waited u and worried so much,
if i send another msg u will think thti am annoying,
like juz wat u said today "u selalu tanye whr r u?,whr r u?, and whr r u !"
u think i wanna ask so much ?
i worried abt u ok?
and sry :(
i know u dont like smsing wit me,
i disturbed u too much,
i hope u will be happy when i found a replacement to replace u in my heart,
wish me luck k ?
pray for me,
and u will lose me k?
and yeah i know u wan to be single,
sry for trying to get in ur life,
and trying to win ur heart,
its stupid (me),
another reasons is i wanna shut down this blog is tht i wanna forget abt u,
is tht ok?
there r people chasing me and i know u r the same too ;),
syg u ;) gambatehh in ur life :)
chelsea syg faizzuddin ^^
it will be in our memories is tht ok ?
hehes, i stop here.
remember u said i like u for fun ?
actually no,
i really likes u,
sincere ;)
today i am not tht happy while watching movie wit u,
u were too busy with ur phone,
i am dissapointed !
arghhhhh !!!
i dont wan u to leave early but it seems like u r busy,
better not to go out next time..
haihh, good night !
and my heart very pain c ur toes bluee in colour
reallywanna hold u. hand today but u sems bored to be wit me in movuess,
haih ;(
hope to hug u too
so sad man !
jaga2 main futsal,
hati i akn sakit klu u cedera,
i xsmpi ati nk tgk,
;)

i sucks

couldnt believe i cant live without this blog :(
arghh !
i am too naive........
arghhh !
wat does ur latest status means by "how am i gonna express this feelings"
haihh,
knew it u gonna fall for someone,
sry if i always dream too much to have u around, :(
k la, good night !
pray to god nobody sees us tomorrow and we can enjoy ;)
i misses u alot man ! wanna take pictures also i dont dare to ask :(

urgh !

at last my right hand is swollen,
everything i do is with left hand,
even i wanna open
the cover of the highlights i cant do it or a pen :(
tell u also make no diff,
wateva la,
i am gonna stop blogging,
and delete the blog soon,
stupid blog and stupid me !!!!!!!
goodbye bloggy my good buddy ^^
today exactly two months we know each other ;) !
proud and sad on the same time

work !

sucks man ;(
humans r juz like ants !
all of a sudden the people come without giving all of us a break :(
have a bad stomache !
thanks to u for caring a bit,
better than nth rite, hehes ;)
thanks for accompanying me also,
pray for ur stomach pain gets well soon <3
xoxo
theres alot of bruises at my hand ;(
aww !
its pain !
MFMF, help me to cure it pls :p
u very mengade x)
always say i wanna kiss u -.-"
yerrerrrrrrr ;p

work !

wanna go out wit u :(

yerrrr TT u going bak johor dy.
not fun :(
i still wanna c u !
I miss u :( awww !
cant wait to c,
dunno how long u will come back once ;)
so worried ! eeeks
TT hope no gals like u :')
dont break my heart,
it will be imperfect without u inside :p

tepuk tangan sebelah

feels like writting something tht turn up in my mind !
aihh ;(
thanks for caring :)
even i dont really want it,
i stil accept,
dun wan u to care abt me so much,
i really dont knw wats in my mind,
i wanna hold my heart for a second and let it stop beating,
i wish i could hug u and say "i hate you ( and then... cry ),
and after tht i walk away,
and never comes back,
and i wish something would happen too,
u hold me and says "i wan u to stay, can i ?" ,
i scare the answer tht u gave me i would juz say "let go",
i will,
whenever i think about both of us i will tears abit ;),
why ?
is god challenging me or something ?
why do i have to express my feelings to this lifeless wall,
why cant i juz talk infront of u ?
am i too scare or i doesnt want to know abt tht truth ;(
can u pls giv me hint,
let me grew stronger ;'(
my heart not strong, but i looked strong?
tell me if u doesnt like me and we wont make it out :(
ok a not ?
after reading this can u tell me at least something ?
and nowadays i havr to text u, nvr even ask i eat already or not,
sryy :)
i have to say it out,
sry if i dont understand u well,
becux u doesnt wants to let me know,
its the time,
i am serious..

arghhhhhh! stop the crap

i have to stop ;(
wuwu !
stopppppppp !
n pls stop it CHELSEA CHEW HUI LING,
good night boy ;)

so fierce ;(

didnt know u r so fierce ;(
i am so scared !!
aihhhhh :(

raya day ;)

bad boy ;p
ask me so many mengarot questions today,
lol, i also dunno how to answer u la ;p
omgg !
the thing is u said u wanna hold my hand,
well i really cant believe,
yeahh as u said,
i shouldnt trust guy words rite,
so should i trust u ?
if i can i will hold ur hand,
aww ! it would be so sweet !
hahahahahas *dreaming*
and yeahhh !!
another one !
u said u wanna bring me back to ur kampong !
awww ! i wan !
i havent go be4, hehes

TT

爱你的我....
很怕，
booooooooo me ! ;)
feels likes stop updating this blog :)
but.......
without this blog i am gonna be bored,
i loveeee euuu very muchieeee BLOG <3

arghhhhh :(

xbes r keje

nk rayaaa daa ;)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI,
kpd...............
MOHD FAIZZUDDIN BIN MOHD FAISAL ;)
yayy !
semoga enjoy pada raya nih,
moga2 next time i dpt celebrate dgn u kn ?
lol, ngaroot je XD hahas ;)

sms quite a lot ahh ! ;)

weeeee XD
its funny when yesterday u said " klu sye ada wife, i tido ngan wife tp tgh2 ada bola"
lol !
cian jd wife u :(
haahahahha !
nasib baik i bukan :)
aduhh ;)
thanks a lot for telling me wat to do when a guy told me "i syg u"
haihh ;)
i daa kasi taw dia i syg dia sebagai kwn,
tp u xjeles pown kn ;)
i jugak yg terfikir lebih yg u akn jeles,
bodohhhhhnyeeee CHELSEA CHEW HUI LING :(
ati i sgt gelisah ari ni,
i cuba kurangkn my like towards u tetapi ia tetap tak nak turun !!!
bencinyeeee :(

early in the morning :(

have a bad stomache !!!!!
making my mood down ):
urghh !
god i wanna get better and go work ;)
pls pls pls ^^

text lesser ;)

text lesser good or both of us ;)
i juz realise it yesterday n i think its true ;)
hehes,
i am the lucky one can go out wit u ^^
right ? :)
thank you a lot a lot :D
never felt tht happy be4 !
awww ;)
u'r kind ;)
plus i am not fierce,
children loves to play wit me and i love them ! ^^
thts why i am childish ;)
u'r mature,
hehes.
mfmf, can u c the diff between both of us ?
satu di langit, satu di bumi kn ?
mcm kamu dgn sye ;D
beza kn ?
izit the bes solution is tht we become good friends ?
HAHA.
and the answer is : YEAP !
i told u you to tell abg suhel impossible,
i dont know why u dont want,
mayb its for another girl,
i juz dont wan ppl to misunderstand me and u,
i dont wan u always tell me,
"ingat jgn kasi taw mrk ke kwn2 u"
i am too bored to hear u repeat and repeat again,
i am sry !
really sry,
i am the only child,
not like u, u got sisters and bros,
they can teach u, backup u whenever u r in the wrong side,
but me ?
who ?
yes my family ( dad, mom and lovely grandma ) ,
but still its diff ;)
sry i sent u the text saying this title,
becux i really feels tht i am bothering u,
annoyed u, (;
i will start planning soon ;)
good luck to u mfmf,
i got my own reasons ;)
not becux of races ^^
or i like any guy, i dont.

the movie we watched : CARS 2

itsss sooooo cuteeeee XD ! awww ;)
likeyyy !
hehes, the red car belongs to me And it is juz like me,
and u r mater the spoil truckkk,
u didnt talk much today ;(
not fun,
i talk to u also,
u mcm nk lyn xnk lyn,
so its ok,
hehes ;)

i feel more relief after sms-ing

i dunno why ;)
feels happy,
it really seems like u never worried abt me,
still i hVe to text u every single time to make sure u r safe :/
why not u ?
if i dont find u, it really worries me,
WHY NOT YOU !!!!!
why !!!!!!

third movies dy !

it comes to the end of our three meeting each other ;)
i have completed it,
so wat now ?
wat should i do ?
i dunnoo luuuu~~~
anything u wanna tell me ?
aihh, i also dont knw
texted wit u few seconds and u said,
u did go to futsal wif them,
and play for fun,
sry..
i am not scolding u wit wat i told u,
i am juz too worried,
mayb i should learn not to be,
why i still so syg u ;(
why i cant put u down,
feels like wanna cry,
i am so tired,
my hand bruise,
my feet the skin is peeling :(
wth man !
i feels like wanna stop working,
and can u stop telling me not to tell anyone i go out wit u?
i wont tell !
pls trust me !
i feel so hard to go on like this.

thinking back wat u texted me yesterday :)

hahas.
can believe u said when u r free,
u will come and find me,
mayb becux wat i posted in here,
u read it,
and u know wat i wanted,
am i right?
aihhhhhhhhhhhhh !

disappointed ahhh :(

MOHD FAIZZUDDIN MOHD FAISAL AHHH !!!
yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ! :(
i mara r :(
u nihh kn -.-"
fine fine.
speechless,
today ;(,
first day of work,
so tired :(
aihhhh !
disturb by a boy named xxxxxxxxxx!
buuuu him !
annoyed me much, frustrated !
TT
today, finish work early,
thought of waiting And i called u !
and xsangka i hang the phone ;(
make me angry always !
:( sad case

sigh !

i am very tired :(
u'r injured too,
again !
told u not to go,
degil -.-"
see !
now wat happen to ur toes ?
if abg iwan didnt say i also wont noe u'r injured !
ur nails blue black and pain !
it makes my heartache,
btw, its ok la,
u dont mind my heartache also,
haihh,
so hard to like u and go on like this,
sometimes when i wondered,
i really felt stupid !
and also felt stupid writting this blog,
and u'r reading it,
isnt it funny,
a girl for fall a guy before the guy does ?
encik azhar said something to all the girls in my class
" CARI LELAKI YANG CINTA KAMU SEBELUM KAMU MENCINTAINYA, ATAUPUN DIA MENCINTAI KAMU LEBIH DARI KAMU MENCINTAINYA, SBB KAMU ORANG TIDAK AKAN TAHU BILA LAKI NI AKAN TINGGALKAN KORANG, SBB IA BLH BERLAKU BILA2 MASA SAHAJA, PERCAYA LA CAKAP CIKGU, XPE KALAU DIA XHENSEM TETAPI HATINYA MESTI BAIK, INI ADALAH YG TERBAIK, TUNGGU MEREKA MENCARI ANDA"
in my situation is different,
so i am worried right now,
but if i loses u,
my heart will be real pain,
and i wouldnt like it !
but it seems we r like good friends,
haihh,
are we ?
or not ?
no one knows the answer,
i asked u be4.....
are u scared if i leave u?
but u couldnt answered it,
and for your information,
i knows the answer,
and i wanna say thank you ;)
becux the answer is ; u wan to leave then u leave, i dont mind, becux its ur life, so its up to u if u want to do so ;)

friday.ponteng.

heyy ;) !
good evening !
i juz ate my dinner ;)
AWESOME DINNER ! ;)
err, today i went and training at baskin robins !
aww ;(
its so tiring !
u have to keep korek, korek and korek !
after i korek i have to timbang,
for single scoop junior is about 70 grams,
and for regular single scoop 110 grams,
aww ;( mine is always nt enuf,
we have our greetings training to customers,
and smiling to the mirror practice-.-"
i serve some customers today,
and one of them is a granny and his grandchild,
grandma ; i wan this vanilla ice-cream
me ; regular scoop ?
grandma ; yeahh !
me ; so, confirm vanilla regular single scoop ?
after i scooped.....
x) in 2seconds time,
grandma ; ehh, why the ice-cream so ugly and little ? i wan u to do it again.
well..... i dont have strength anymore, so i asked a guy to help, i told him about wat the grannny said, he does it bigger and then.....
grandma ; okok, satisfied !
me ; please pay at the counter, tq ;)
later tht guy said to me
guy ; sebenarnyee bukan ice-cream xcantik, dia nk lbh je tuu.
i laughed very loud x)
nice experience tho ! ;)
and we trained about 4hours,
is really tiring and kinda torturing :(
btw, in tht time i misses u a lot, juz tht i didnt wan to text u, i knew u will be busy,
but ltr on, when i online fb, u were thr, so i made my move to chat wit u,
yeahh i getting more and more happy while chattin wif u nowadays,
but i have no idea why,
i wish to talk to u soon ;)

YOU !

kuar main futsal lg ari nihh :(
aduhh.
da la injured,
blm baik lg,
degil gak nk main futsal,
xblh belahh XD
hahas.
i keje selama 9 hari untuk cuti nih :')
keje di BASKIN ROBIN !
gembiraaaanyeee dpt ice-cream percuma laa nnt :P
xde rest pown,
moga2 ada r org dtg kn?
hahaha XD
MFMF,
i berharap u akn dtg mkn mlm dgn sye :')
haha !
CHELSEA CHEW HUI LING !
pls STOP dreaming ya :D
hahas !

awww :(

today was the last day in school,
i am not going to school tomorrow :)
i wished some of them SELAMAT HARI RAYA ^_^
awww :)
wish they enjoy !
and u too :)
i saw abg iwan tagged u,
u r injured rite?
ur side knee?
*heartache :)*
told u not to play if u cant,
u didnt wan to listen,
still go out till so late,
ahhh.
stop here.
:)
have a nice day to you :D

OH !

well, whenever i talked to u,
i dont wanna hang up,
or stop sms-ing,
or fb chat ENDED,
keberatan =.="
i am so shitty rite :(
i dont like it !
SUCKS :')
LIFE SUCKS ! :(
but stil,
we have to go on,
MFMF , do not love this blog,
u wouldnt noe when it will dissapear :)
by tht time u wouldnt have the chance to read it anymore,
appreciate while i am still updating it :)
SUDDENLY,
it makes me think back the night we sms-ed,
i said good night my boy :) ( i am sincere ) ,
but when i get a replied from u saying,
" good night my girl, haha ( with a haha behind i noe its not sincere at all :) ) ,
anyway thanks,
i am happy abt it,
even i noe i am cheating myself much ♥

good night to u MFMF♥
and pls do not go out so late,
i am SERIOUS tht i am worried abt u alot :)
k.bye.i know u wont care.
so take care :)
drink more water ♥

another day pass by :)

i met u on the 1/7/11 in the camp,
if i not mistaken :) ,
today is 24/8/11 ,
we knew each other like 55days ?,
hahas.
i still dont know wat r u thiking,
55days is like 55years,
it pass very slow :( ,
i wish i know u longer ? errr, mayb not ><
one of friend told me,
if both of u cant get together,
be his "god sister (adik angkat)" ,
well, i said NO to her :) ,
i rather to stay as a good friend i also wont want to be ur god sister :) ,
no point at all :D
hahas.
well, forget abt it.
bored.

for u :)

MY TRAGIC STORY..
break in my heart and check it :)
i still cant erase u,
i keep thinking abt u,
i wan to see u so badly,
i cant sleep at night,
the sound of rain tht thumps on the window of my heart,
the spot tht u gave up,
i miss you so much,
i reli cant sleep at all night,
your back is showing to me tht u'r leaving and avoiding me,
i cant do anything anymore,
i regret it so much,
i am sry,
i hope u will be here,
i cant be patient becux someday u wouldnt exist,
the tears in my eyes flow down,
i wont be able to forget u,
until when i will be like this ? ,
all night i only thinks abt u :),
why did i turn out to be here? ,
the distance between u and i has gotten bigger,
i was the servant for this love,
we do agrue for sometimes,
wat u feels ? ,
why am i so frozen right now ? ,
wat i nid ? ,
you hit my stuffy heart ! ,
wit ur hands clasped together :) ,
i will pray :),
forget abt u is hard,
i am sry and i know how u will react when u c this :) ,
i only can say sorry,
everything will be okay ! ,

<3

sry i talked to much :)

i gonna admit here,
i tears the night i chatted wit u :)
sry :')
thanks !
i got nth to say more :)
but i am really ok and happy yesterday ! :D

thivuu !

haha,
laughed and play alot wit her today x)
i even sleep in class :)
hehes.
i guess i am dreaming too :D
hahhas !
i dunnno wat teacher crapping in front !
aww :(

0330 :)

nice song ! :)
hehes.
love this song very much !

when u miss someone wat would u do?

1. waiting for them to text u
2. wish they would juz appear in front of u
3. a call from him/her
4. go out with him/her
5. i dont know anymore.

school :)

wore my new long sleeve uniform to school !
AWESOME :D
but, the weather damn hot today T_T
sweats a lot :(
awww !
slept in class X)
hahas ! yay :)

after FINAL DESTINATION, COWBOY and ALIENS :)

aww :)
i watch wit u again !
ITS SECOND time :)
i feels happy to go out wiff u :)
hahas.
u'r cute !
i juz cant take my eyes off you ! ><
u talk alot today :)
not bad, lame jokes ? doesnt make sense jokes ? ahahha !
well, i wanted to take some pictures wit u,
but i am not daring anough to ask :(
i was so cold in the cinema :(
until my fingers and toes were NUMB !
u'r cold too :)
hahas :)
well, mayb next time u can offer to hold my hand ?
like wat u said to me after the movie
"dulu kn i tgk movie, pastu sejuk adalah tht girl hold my hand sbb dia xnk kesejukan"
hahahas, i xsampai hati to c u sejuk also :)
well, i wont do it :D
hehes
btw, i wish u were thr wit me longer :')
my friend said u looks cool,
wish i am thinking the same too =.="
expecially when u'r watching movie :D
hahas !

well, end here :)
imy after all :D

FINAL DESTINATION 5

arghh TT
scary :( and catch a cold :')
it was exciting !
i am scareD ><
ekks !
its digusting!
the LASER for the eye X)
GYM !
BUS !
MASSAGE CENTER !
KITCHEN !
AEROPLANE (on the way to PARIS) !
this movie length is abt one and a half hour !
well, nice experience !
becux its 3D
now i have a heart attack X)
i SURVIVE ! :D
yipppiee :)

i think we have to stop :)

i didnt noe u'r reading my blog or not,
thank you for telling me i am CHILDISH,
u'r right, i never tried to be mature be4 ?
life is not FUN without a person being CHILDISH :)
how if i am always serious ?
everyone will love it?
MFMF i like u for now, and i have to let go u for now :')
i am sry,
i couldnt go on like this,
its not becux i dont love u,
or i dont like u..
its juz the matter we couldnt get along rite?
u dont even like me a bit till now,
u never wants to tel me wat r u feeling towards me,
if i always ask u,
u will be thinking wat is the matter wit me rite?
i think i am silly and stupid,
u noe something ?
i never felt this deeep be4,
my longest relationship is 3months,
not more than tht u noe?
but u, i can be wit u till u dont want me :)
but well,
i dont think it works anymore,
do wateva u want right now,
i would juz be normal to u,
till the day u like me,
then we can consider abt it,
mayb sometimes i will tell u tht "i like u MFMF♥"
i wish u will thought tht its real :)
going all through this is hard for me :')
but not u :)
my heart cant bare the pain anymore,
i mean NO MORE :D

hahas, thanks :) ♥

cant believe wat happened yesterday and today afternoon ♥
thanks :)

haihhhhhh :( sigh....

keep on thinking abt u :(
barely can concentrate sometimes :')
i misses u so much !
wat is wrong wit me?

my expression : =)

its hard to smile even i dont want to,
but i have to :)
becux i wanna c u smile,
but u will never know :)
everyone loves saying abt me and u,
anything happen they would juz tagged ur name,
but, is there any use of tagging ur name?
it feels so hard to go on like this,
looking at ur names all over wat i posted,
becux no point they doing tht,
ONLY ME, U and THE GODS know :)
any love songs of mine would make me think of u :)
i tried to control myself to not text u,
why cant i do it?
why cant u juz text me?
even a good morning?
why do i have to text so many times.
and after tht only u would replied?
cant u juz at least let me know u actually cared abt me ?
sometimes i tell something i really mean it, u would juz ignore :'(
well, the end :)

i am getting fatter :(

if i am fat i think my chances for him to like will gets lower :(
i have to keep fit :(
but......... my mouth couldnt stop me from eating :')

:)

IMY, ILY and Many More :)
well, its so hard right to keep a relationship quiet !
but i am happy also,
so tht my mom or cousins wouldnt noe !
hahas, when i can i c u jealous on me?
when would it happen?
mayb wont also :)
hehes,
i making too many conclusions ><
ekkks
*stop thinking chelsea*
yesssssss, i mmg very syg u :(
argh,
every seconds i am thinking abt u !
:)
but i wont neglect my studies too ^_^
u will always ask abt my homeworks,
i admit i lied sometimes,
becux when i am not in a good mood,
i rather choose to chat wit u than doing all my homeworks !

-the end-

BAZAR RAMADHAN

woots woots !
yess ! at last i am going this heaven place ! :)
thank you JOEY !
yes to MELISSA AND ZHI JING :D
i can eat wit u all and then i will gain weight =.="
wat a wonderful day :)
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !
:D

dont mean it :)

sry tht i wasted some of ur credits to call me up
i really dont mean it ^_^ hehes :)
thanks ! i really really enjoyed the time we spend on the phone !
xoxo :)

MFMF ♥

now u even care more abt me♥
i appreciate :)
u worried abt me when i am alone in the mall,
its sweet ♥ thank you MF
i am sry wit wat i told u be4 :(
abt u'r not concentrating, caring, like all this while wat am i doing to u is pointless, disappointed, i am sry, i have to tell my feelings, this is the only way for u noe :(
but LUCKILY u'r not angry ^_^
u said " u say i nvr care abt u? i always worried abt u..n u say i dont care? i try to make my free time to u and u said its pointless? i also try to open my heart to u but u say i never giv chance to u? i never asked u to giv up.i thought u were happy abt it, if u'r not happy to leave me, why u always said u wanna giv up? i always said tht i dont want to hurt u? but why u assume tht i never care abt u? "
with this text from u to me ♥
only i realise i actually do exists is ur life :)
thanks MF ♥
heart u lots !

MOVIES on SUNDAY 7/8/11 THE APES !

thank you to you :)
i had a wonderful day, even the movie is only 2hours,
we didnt talk much,
mayb we r not used to it :)
thanks for making stupid jokes ><
hahas :)
i heart u ! MFMF ! ♥
even its hard to go through all this :D
stay strong ♥
hehes, only at this date i noe u never wanted me to giv up on u :)
so, i wont do tht anymore♥
i promise !

KOLOKIUM

students tht involve : 1. HUI TING ( leader :D )
2. YEN LING
3. ZHI JING
4. CHELSEA
we have been worked very hard for this project :)
hope we will succeed ! :D <3

its been almost ONE month :)

well, i get to know abt u more and more
from day to day,
i think my attitude is not tht gud,
becux i always merajuk,
even if i merajuk also,
u wont giv me any response :( ,
haihh, seriously like tepuk tngan sebelahhh,
izit i didnt giv much effort on it or wat?
wat am i lack of?
or he doesnt like me from the start?
sometimes, when i am alone, i will be thinking "i am too tired to go on like this, i am sry, i might giv up on u :( "
any ideas to make me stronger? :)

-xoxo-

whr have u been?

hahass.
i thought i got ur number !
well, its embarassing !
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something tht never crossed my mind HAPPENED !
hahahs,
good EXPERIENCE THOU !
:)
- i wont give up -
until i have to :D

wonderful friday :)

i was thinking abt u all the time,
i wish i could be with u <3
if there is chances between us,
i wouldnt let u go !
i am serious.
i've been waiting for u all these while.
u can say tht i juz like u for fun,
for now i dont think so :)
trust me please !
giv response back to me !
i need it badly !
:)

yay

at last i gt ur number !
thank you :)

CONFUSED

:(
why am i being like this these few days :(

TADAAAAAAAA ! SATURDAY !

i woke up early in the morning !
and had a heart attack for kejut-ing myself !
i thought got school !
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arghhhhhhhhh !
but i think is a good thing lah !
haha !

- :) -

CAMPING !

omgeeeeeeeeee ! 1/7/11 till 2/7/11
sye bertolak dr sklh pd kul 3.00pm gituu r,
sblm bertolak tuu,
i kenaa laaa tick name tgk mrk hadir ke x..
susah btl jd setiausaha pertauliahan !
adoiii !
pastuuu, kite pun smpi di situ kul 4pm gituu kot,
kite dikehendaki membuat khemahh r !
tp i xbuat pownn,
sbb i nihh kn ngarott? haha
kwn2 i buat r :)
pastu mknan, shampoo diambil oleh mrk r ><
adoii.
susah tul hidup !
ada ice breaking mlm tuhh, menari2, berjoget laa dan byk lg ah !

2/7/11
tetibaaa ! BANGUN !!
adoiii, kite pown kena r bangun !
KENA g " NIGHT WALK "
manakutkn gler2 r !
ase je nk terkencing dlm seluar !
xsangka mrk akn buat gitu,
da laa mse jln tuu gler takot,
ishh, xpernah mengalaminyee dlm idup sebenar gini :)
lps tuh, diberi tido kjp,
bangun lg, buat senaman,
pastu g larian satu malaysia =.=
bohhh ! 2KM kott ! ingat dekat keww?
ish ish ish !
tp kn ! i berjaya dpt nombor 6 ! *bangga tul*
pastu ada r explorace ngarot,
guling dlm air sungai yg kotor, sampai basah kuyup !
main pasir la,
baling kasut la =.=
SANDCASTLE pownn ada ! :D
best kn?
mmg r seronok g sana !
TAPI TAK DAPAT MAIN TUUU LAA SUSAH !
pastu diri BEVOUC laa, byk KERENGGA GLER2 !
><
mrk jugak yg buat ! xbuat pownn :P
hahaha !

3/7/11
tgh mlm jugak laaa kite dikejutkn utk mengidupkn api !
adoiiihaii !
takott arrr!
ase nk gler kat dlm tuuuhh !
yay ! balik ><
dapat gak APOLLETE sye !
yes yes yes !
gembira gler :P

semua letih tp mmg gembira !

LAGI SATU BENDE : xdpt msg dgn baby sye selama 3hari mmg sakit jiwa r :P <3