i very scare :( its getting scarier..

i dream abt u everynight,
which i dont know wat to do :(
in the dream we r always close,
why isnt it happening in real life,
sry,
teach me how to quit :'(
dont like it when u say bye2,
nothing is interesting btw me and u anymore,
its not like last time,
nothing like last time :'(
i know we r not from the same race,
u prefer malays,
too bad i am not,
i am sry :'(
i no more strength to cry everday,
how stupid was tht,
every mins i am missing u,
u even sometimes texted me an said " dont wait for me i might forget to text u"
it shows tht i dont really exist,
do u know tht?
i am always talking to myself,
i dunno wat to sms wit u anymore,
u r so COLD,
i wished to be pampered,
why always other guys come and tel me they like me and love me,
why not u ?
haaa ???
why ;'(
everytime sms wit u,
i wish for something nice tht u would say,
i remember once i tell u i merajuk,
u replied and said " pergi merajuk dulu, da abis merajuk we text"
wth was tht ?
no girls wish for tht,
thank you for all this,
i appreciate,
one day if i am lost,
u dont have to find me,
;)
wish u happy always,
i have got no appetite for two days :'(
wat abt tomorrow ?
same thing happen ?
another thing,
when i tegur u to be sweet,
then only u will do it,
why ?
ok fine i know i am not ur girlfriend,
i am very tired,
very stressful,
everything i am doing,
there must be something related to u,
i tried to make myself bz,
but when i pause for a moment,
u will juz appear in my mind :'(
why is this happening to me ?
r u the same too ?
actually i know u r in LOVE,
with another girl,
i know in the end wont be me,
i dont think i am wasting time on u,
all i know is everything i have done is all worth it,
thanks to u 4 everything we have together,
u will always be special in my heart :)
bye mohd faizzuddin bin mohd faisal :')