i miss u :'(

what on earth is happening,
i feel i very mengarot,
u wan this relation to be true,
i am being true,
juz u dont wan it,
hope i can juz sleep and not wake up from this evil world,
but nth would be easy :(
it is torturing :(
luckily i still have my god brother syg me :),
i cant sleep :(
everynight also canot sleep,
i always wait for u to sleep :(
then i will sleep,
but depends,
if my heartache when i sms wit u,
i choose to sleep,
becux wateva i do,
u wont care :(
becux i noe i am not important,
:'(
everyday i am in pain :(
every single day,
good luck to u,
very happy to c u happy,
even my heart is been poked by a sharp knife,
i am still strong :)
19 more days i wont be around
:) take care