hehe

heeee~~~ i misses euu so much <3
i sleep alot over here <3
no worries at all !
all i have to do is sleep =)
isnt it cool ?
how r u ?
doing good ?
^_^

1/12/11

aihh, today was the 5th month i know u =) i was very happy ^_^ but too bad i am in singapore >< couldnt wish us, but i think it will be okay for u, cux we r not couple ;'( sometimes it was really happy to be wit, but high disappointment from u wil be waiting for me to go through, hurmm... i did not blame u for u r late when u eat, but u ate for almost 45mins ? hmm =( i really dont know wat r we up to, but i juz know my heart still loving u like i always do <3 should i go on and wait for u ? or wat should i do ? mayb u r not serious =/ 

one more day to go ;)

i didnt get to c u today,
i feel so unhappy,
going sg soon,
cant text wit u anymore,
take care of urself when i am not around,
hurm,
u said we still can chat at fb ?
u online u also wont find me ?
so i dont tink we will chat,
u dont have to find me laa,
haihh,
i noe i gonna miss u lots ;')
i love u :(

UKM

went to UKM ;)
i really thought i can forget everything About u :)
how stupid !
i went there, day and night i was waiting ur msgs,
how much do i have to cry ?
how can i make u stay ?
i have fun a lot over there,
but my mind and heart is not in the camp at all,
i know for u is diff,
u dont even mind.. mayb u do?
i dont know,
becux u never show :)
first dy when i reached,
i already become popular :)
becux when the president asked " who can lead for girls "
and yeahh, my name is been called up ;)
and later another vice president gave speeches abt UKM life,
u know wat ? he looks exactly like u MFMF ;')
everywhr i go,
i will c u !
why ?
in the night we have ice breaking, its cool ;)
we play group booming ! ^_^
the guy who looks like u keep disturb and play wit me :)
hehe,
i am sick tht night,
so i went and sleep at 12am,
i am the earliest among all my friends,
they r making noise but i am sleeping like theres no tomorrow ^_^
second day,
wake up early, exercise wit them and chicken dance too ;)
but he did not come in the morning,
i wanted to c him so much,
juz becux he looks like u,
after tht we had breakfast and we kumpul at the same place,
and later i went to toilet and she locked me inside,
the door was spoiled,
i am locked abt 6 to 7mins,
i keep shouting,
one of the faci rescued me ;)
thanks to him !
but i cried badly and i was very down becux i was too scared,
we did play water games,
in the night got like mlm kebudayaan ;)
i acted,
everyone laughed at my jokes ^_^
feel proud,
he was everywhere i went,
i am actually same group wit him,
but i did not wan ^_^
becux u r still in my mind,
i have lots of fun there !
all the kakak and abang very nice to me,
second day was the last night,
two kakak n him sent me back to my hostel,
i dont have to walk,
heeeee :)
he talked to me alot alot :)
and in a moment i feel it was like u talking to me,
but i told myself its not u,
third day is the day we had to go back ^_^
i talked for the majlis penutup becuz they ask for pandangan,
and i talked !
they r impress ;)
my group won number 2 ^_^
weeeee <3
nice camping ;)

:)

i did not wait for u ystrdy ;)
becux i know msgs woul not come :')
i slept at 8.30pm,
and woke up around 7.30am,
means i slept for 11 hours :)
9 more days to go <3
i am sry tht i wont be by ur side to care u anymore,
i am still in love wit u,
hurmm,
good luck in ur test today my boy :)
u sure can do it ^_^
xoxo
i will pray for u :)

i wan to call u dear :'( how ?

tsk tsk :')
happy day !
now is 6.09am,
wooo,
and i am blogging in the morning ;)
first time when i wake up,
i THINK about YOU,
:) ,
how sweet is ur smile tht always melts me ^_^
hehehe,
good morning dear :)

hmmph, cried again last night

its a day be4 i gonna take my muet exams :'(
i cried, hmmph :(
u told me u need spaces,
i didnt know tht i reli did so bad whenni enter ur life,
11 more days and i wont be around,
u will be happy and free,
i know i am a bored person,
i dont know how to cheer u,
i will wake up from my mistakes :)
hope everything will be alright,
i juz wanna say,
i really do care every liltle single thing u do or done,
:')
<3
for all,
i wan to say,
i starts to LOVE u,
i dont wanna lose u,
so, u take care.

1day

without u one day texting me,
its like last time u told me,
sad and bored,
:)
it really happens to me,
i only can wait u to msg me :)
i <3 u

these few days i juz get to chat wit u :/

i get to chat wit u in FB,
for like not even 5 mins?
when u said bye,
tears rolling down from my cheek,
i feel so pain,
even u said 'nnt i msg u'
i know u wont,
becux u hate me :(
i should dissapear :(
my heart is broken,
i will heal it back.

i am been saying sry to u :'(

i am sry,
today ur fren keep asking me whether i wit u got anything ?
i told him tht i dont like u,
:')
eventhough it is very pain to say tht,
i have to ;')
all becux of u,
u wanted it to be like this,
me...
i am very pain too,
i hurt more than u do,
u never even find me anymore ;'(
ok la,
good night.
i cried again :(
very pain

karaoke !

went karaoke juz now wit a bunch of friends,
i feel so good when i get to sing :)
its like all the problems r not there,
teehee ;)
well,
i remember u said i am a happy go lucky person!
do u still remember ?
and yahh,
its true actually ;)
when i got to chat wit u,
i feel more happy,
its nature,
i cant do anything,
but please forgive me if i have done anything wrong ok ?
sry once again ^_^

i am here to say sry !

i dont know whether u will read it or not,
i am sry if i hurt u,
i didnt know u wil be hurt,
hurm,
i am sry,
but i really want u to stay right beside me,
dont leave,
and dont tht u will hurt,
i am sry,
thankd for forgiving me,
i appreciate it ^_^
i am really sry for wat happen be4,
i need u.

actually...........

i appreciates u alot ;)
even u tell me u still confuse,
i will wait ;)

guitar :)

lame daa xmain gitar utk u dgr :')
i nk main lg,
u nk dgr x ?
hehe,
rindu nk ckp dlm fon,
dgr suara u ;)

OLD MESSAGES

yerrr ;p
when i read back my old messages wit u,
i feel so funny,
only certain i keep,
happy tho !
haha,
u'r so funny !
stay like last time ;)

12/11/11

time passes so fast and already 4 months :),
happy tho !
today wake up early in the morning and texted u,
glad tht u replied,
today is ur bro big day !
yay,
congratz to him,
sry i lied tht i am bz,
i am actually not,
i juz dont wan to disturb u,
but really wish tht we still cn text with each other ;)
today morning i also recieved a msg from fren,
telling me all abt love,
i feel so down :'(
my mood is running away,
u r a patient and not tempered guy that i nvr meet be4,
i started to learn some,
sry paeh :)
i dunno how to care abt u,
i will keep up the oil,
hope u happy always :)

mengaku -.-"

i ngaku i rinduu sgt dkt u :(
blh x i nk jumpe u lg ?
asenyee xlehh da kowt ;)
hehe, 18 ari lg :)
kamu ttp akn berada di ati sye,
u kate u xkn tinggalkn i kn? ;)
i sgt gembira ^_^
kegembiraan yg tidak blh dibayangkn :)
semoga anda dan keluarga selalu sihat :D

budak2 :/

i am budak2,
u r dewasa :),
how ??
any idea ??
;)

i miss u :'(

what on earth is happening,
i feel i very mengarot,
u wan this relation to be true,
i am being true,
juz u dont wan it,
hope i can juz sleep and not wake up from this evil world,
but nth would be easy :(
it is torturing :(
luckily i still have my god brother syg me :),
i cant sleep :(
everynight also canot sleep,
i always wait for u to sleep :(
then i will sleep,
but depends,
if my heartache when i sms wit u,
i choose to sleep,
becux wateva i do,
u wont care :(
becux i noe i am not important,
:'(
everyday i am in pain :(
every single day,
good luck to u,
very happy to c u happy,
even my heart is been poked by a sharp knife,
i am still strong :)
19 more days i wont be around
:) take care

11/11/11

how i wish this date i can be wit u,
even one day its enough,
well,
i dont know wat is wrong wit me,
study hard :)
ask me to be ur gf ?
haha,
how stupid,
impossible,
but if really happens,
i duno wat to say,
becuz too happy :)
hahaha !
*womdering*

wishing is juz a part of my day

wish to go out wit u saturday to meet awhile,
but i guess i cant :)
ur adik is gonna tunang,
congratz to him and family :)
wish everything will go well,
and yahh,
i forget to tell,
i am missing u too much ;>
but sooner,
i will miss u more than u know :)
kayss,
sleep tight !

dont misunderstands

when i say they say i love u,
or miss me,
i never BOTHER,
i am serious :)
kayss :/

i miss u boy :/

all the time u r in my head !
i cant get u out of my head =.="
miss you :)

everything ends on november ?

juz tell me u wan to be together or not,
i will still be here i think,
;)

selamat hari raya aidil adha

sry !!
forget to write it down ;)
once again,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA,
hehes ;)

MFMF

mohd faizzuddin bin mohd faisal ;)
its really a special name for me :)
do u know my full name ?
i bet u dont know,
do u know i love the most other than family?,
its sleeping and eating,
do u know wat i hate the most,
when u r not here wit me when i needed u the most :)
do u know wat i love to do when i am bored?
play guitar and singing even i have a bad voice,
when i am EMO?,
wat would i do ?
do u know ?
i will think abt ur smile then i will smile,
ur SMILE is so awesome and i have to c it,
do u know i am the only child ?
do u remember every single thing of me ?
when is my birthday ?
when i have my ttn ?
when i have my exams ?
when is the time i usually eat ?
wat time i finished school ?
have u ever wanted to know or ask me ?
do u know i am like the peribahasa "perigi mencari timba"
k la, i am very tired,
bye2 << ur favourite words to me

i very scare :( its getting scarier..

i dream abt u everynight,
which i dont know wat to do :(
in the dream we r always close,
why isnt it happening in real life,
sry,
teach me how to quit :'(
dont like it when u say bye2,
nothing is interesting btw me and u anymore,
its not like last time,
nothing like last time :'(
i know we r not from the same race,
u prefer malays,
too bad i am not,
i am sry :'(
i no more strength to cry everday,
how stupid was tht,
every mins i am missing u,
u even sometimes texted me an said " dont wait for me i might forget to text u"
it shows tht i dont really exist,
do u know tht?
i am always talking to myself,
i dunno wat to sms wit u anymore,
u r so COLD,
i wished to be pampered,
why always other guys come and tel me they like me and love me,
why not u ?
haaa ???
why ;'(
everytime sms wit u,
i wish for something nice tht u would say,
i remember once i tell u i merajuk,
u replied and said " pergi merajuk dulu, da abis merajuk we text"
wth was tht ?
no girls wish for tht,
thank you for all this,
i appreciate,
one day if i am lost,
u dont have to find me,
;)
wish u happy always,
i have got no appetite for two days :'(
wat abt tomorrow ?
same thing happen ?
another thing,
when i tegur u to be sweet,
then only u will do it,
why ?
ok fine i know i am not ur girlfriend,
i am very tired,
very stressful,
everything i am doing,
there must be something related to u,
i tried to make myself bz,
but when i pause for a moment,
u will juz appear in my mind :'(
why is this happening to me ?
r u the same too ?
actually i know u r in LOVE,
with another girl,
i know in the end wont be me,
i dont think i am wasting time on u,
all i know is everything i have done is all worth it,
thanks to u 4 everything we have together,
u will always be special in my heart :)
bye mohd faizzuddin bin mohd faisal :')

i need u :( arghh TT

i dont know wat else i can do right now at this time,
i feel tht i needed u so much :(
why r u not by my side ?
i wan to c u again :(
hopefully u can smile when the next time we meet,
i am very down :'(

NO LOSING U :'(

i am very scared :(
i feeling very down,
i know u r reading every single post tht i posted,
i seriously damn syg u :(
or i have to go ?
i guess i ALREADY FOUND A RIGHT GUY :(
i cannot let go,
if i let go i will REGRET,
u seems doesnt care at all,
i was waiting for ur GOOD NIGHT everynight.
i know its silly,
but stil i am waiting :'(
the other night i i said "nyte.tc"
i woke up several times to check up my phones :'(
i am so disappointed,
my heart breaks,
i am very scared,
i wanted to know more abt u,
but it seems like,
u doesnt like it,
i dont know wat else i can do,
u said u wan this relation to be something like perfect if we get to know each other more,
u always telling me u r bz,
i understands,
but..
it seems like u dont understands me,
i wish at least a good morning or good night,
now u r back in KUANTAN,
if i got a choice,
i would wan to meet u everyday,
but i know u will say u r BZ,
i dont know wat to say more,
but i juz cant stop my heart from meting whenever i c u smiling to me,
i love see-ing u smile,
thts why when u come back,
i wan to go out wit u,
i cant juz go out alone wit u,
if my mom found out,
i will die,
becux she dont really allowed me to go out wit guys,
not even chinese boy :)
so,
if she saw me or cousins,
i can say i am dead,
u wont be see-ing me anymore,
i might be ALONE after tht,
so, u said u dont like it when i actually say u look like the guy in the movie,
i apologise here,
i hope u can accept it,
i will MENGALAH only to u,
but i dont know how long i can go on like this,
my LOVE to u is TRUE,
i never play play,
i dont even dare,
but i know u wouldnt care,
u never ask if i eaten my dinner already,
u r much sweeter when i first know u,
u said i am cute,
i am so happy,
but i think u r juz joking,
every single thing abt u,
wat i did,
i not only type in this blog,
i even wrote in down in a book of mine,
i am so tired,
k bye,
have a nice day :)

chelsea loves the bear <3

very pain, and i am crying :'(

i am very sad,
why u treated me like this?
i am sry,
if i am wrong,
i cant stand being hurt,
i know u r bz,
i understands,
i also wan some time from u,
tsk tsk,
why do i fall in love wit u :'(
why, can GOD pls tel me?
i am very pain :(
i dont want anything more,
i am very sad :(
why u still dont understands me,
i only first time crying for a guy tht dont even likes me,
i sucks :(
i have to go,
bye,
i cant stop crying :'(
its so pain..

good

everything i have to lose,
no matter what i do or did,
why do u have to make me cry?
why?
tell me !

if i am being too much

pls tell me :(
i really canot lose u :(
its stupid,
but pls.
I LOVE YOU

sry dear :)

i dont mean to be annoying !
sry =(
this is the first time i am so in LOVE :(
hehe~
i am sry i didnt understands u much,
my fault ya :)
thanks for the movie tonight <3
i really appreciate,
but u did not smile :(