NO LOSING U :'(

i am very scared :(
i feeling very down,
i know u r reading every single post tht i posted,
i seriously damn syg u :(
or i have to go ?
i guess i ALREADY FOUND A RIGHT GUY :(
i cannot let go,
if i let go i will REGRET,
u seems doesnt care at all,
i was waiting for ur GOOD NIGHT everynight.
i know its silly,
but stil i am waiting :'(
the other night i i said "nyte.tc"
i woke up several times to check up my phones :'(
i am so disappointed,
my heart breaks,
i am very scared,
i wanted to know more abt u,
but it seems like,
u doesnt like it,
i dont know wat else i can do,
u said u wan this relation to be something like perfect if we get to know each other more,
u always telling me u r bz,
i understands,
but..
it seems like u dont understands me,
i wish at least a good morning or good night,
now u r back in KUANTAN,
if i got a choice,
i would wan to meet u everyday,
but i know u will say u r BZ,
i dont know wat to say more,
but i juz cant stop my heart from meting whenever i c u smiling to me,
i love see-ing u smile,
thts why when u come back,
i wan to go out wit u,
i cant juz go out alone wit u,
if my mom found out,
i will die,
becux she dont really allowed me to go out wit guys,
not even chinese boy :)
so,
if she saw me or cousins,
i can say i am dead,
u wont be see-ing me anymore,
i might be ALONE after tht,
so, u said u dont like it when i actually say u look like the guy in the movie,
i apologise here,
i hope u can accept it,
i will MENGALAH only to u,
but i dont know how long i can go on like this,
my LOVE to u is TRUE,
i never play play,
i dont even dare,
but i know u wouldnt care,
u never ask if i eaten my dinner already,
u r much sweeter when i first know u,
u said i am cute,
i am so happy,
but i think u r juz joking,
every single thing abt u,
wat i did,
i not only type in this blog,
i even wrote in down in a book of mine,
i am so tired,
k bye,
have a nice day :)

chelsea loves the bear <3