we r together on the 3rd may and now we r two months together.. but it seems like a funny relationship, dear, u cant even remember the date, i cried becux i argued with u, every movie i watched i think abt us, it seems like i dont reli love u anymore, i am so tired tht i have to do everything to keep this relationship working, i am a girl, i am strong physically, doesnt mean tht i am mentally strong too, i know u still dont love me, sry i aleays doubt u? u never show me tht u care for me, guys were chasing me, so do girls r chasing u, i never feel be love or to be love by u before, it doesnt matter who r u, i juz reli reli care abt u n me.. i duno how long i still can go on like this ? i never recieved a call from u ? u always wait me to find u, why i see others couple r different ? they r so sweet together, but we ? u knows better than i do, it seems like everything is easy to u, i would like u to coke back and meet me and then giv me a hug and whisper to my ear and say "I LOVE YOU DEAR" i am satisfied til here :) i hope u can make our relationship better than last time and i wish u were here to v me crying ^_^ XOXO love, chelsea

my ring?

so, today is 5th FEB,
i met him the day before this date means 4th,
he came to library to meet me,
and sorta like fun-argued yesterday,
its fun but u r very mengarot :)
u was laughing n smiling so much,
i melted in a second,
when i c u,
i forget everything around me,
i love to c u so much,
do u know tht i am still hoping ?
but,
if one day i stop hoping,
i hope u will realised tht i really love u alot be4 tis :)
we know each other for 7months already,
i think wat we both r doing it is juz dream created by me,
u totally got no response towards me,
i always thought u r mine,
but,
i know i am cheating myself to make myself more happy,
life goes on,
both of us also :)
mayb i really cant win ur heart,
epic fail chelsea :)
find someone who wil nt argue n understands u more than i do,
cares abt u,
will be there for u anytime,
wouldn't make u jealous,
the first day of cny i was really reallysick,
but when i saw ur messages,
i really unhappy?
i dunno why,
when i am sick i really nid,
instead on tht day other ppl keep msg n asked abt me,
u r juz like nothing happen when i said i am sick
u r one of the guys i loved the most :)
after this month,
i will slowly move on,
u too k :)
take care of urself <3
i could not be there always for u,
i belongs to nobody becux i dont want to,
i never delete ur msgs,
unless u asked to,
i nvr lied be4,
Ur name wil always be in my heart :)
dont think abt us already,
slowly u move on :)
u will c one day u wil be happy without me,
i am sad but i wont show it up to u,
mayb be4 this i did,
but u wouldnt care much :)
its ok i will take care of myself

i am blank

hurm,
i dont know wat happen to myself,
i am sick these few days ;)
r u still reading this blog ?
or i am writting it alone without anyone reading it ?
it was stupid :(
23/1/12 is coming,
i am very scared :(
i wan a happy ending :'(
i am no ready if the answer is NO,
i might pain till i dont know wat to say,
i am trying to avoid but i know i will also get the answers,
:)
goodnight paeh

final :)

it comes to ur final months again !
yeahh <3
i am here to pray for ur test or exams?
not only tht, ur health and everything too,
sry i argued wit u the other day,
but i think its juz becux i love you ?
hurmm, oood to hear tht got lots of girl waiting for u answers ;)
i think i am not gonna be tht lucky to have u,
i wan u to care abt me,
if a guy loves a girl, no matter how bz he is,
he will at least send a msg to him :)
how i wish u to be like tht,
haihhhh :(
i got JPJ test tomorrow,
i know u already forgot ;) good 4 u, bye

miss u more than know

=( sorry
i didnt want to stay :(
but every time i wanna walk away,
u will be here :)
i juz feel tht i need u so much,
5/12/11, talked in the phone,
hurm,
it was cool,
i juz know i misses ur voice,
and yahh,
i dunno when u can be sweet :(
j juz wanna go away :'(

hehe

heeee~~~ i misses euu so much <3
i sleep alot over here <3
no worries at all !
all i have to do is sleep =)
isnt it cool ?
how r u ?
doing good ?
^_^

1/12/11

aihh, today was the 5th month i know u =) i was very happy ^_^ but too bad i am in singapore >< couldnt wish us, but i think it will be okay for u, cux we r not couple ;'( sometimes it was really happy to be wit, but high disappointment from u wil be waiting for me to go through, hurmm... i did not blame u for u r late when u eat, but u ate for almost 45mins ? hmm =( i really dont know wat r we up to, but i juz know my heart still loving u like i always do <3 should i go on and wait for u ? or wat should i do ? mayb u r not serious =/ 

one more day to go ;)

i didnt get to c u today,
i feel so unhappy,
going sg soon,
cant text wit u anymore,
take care of urself when i am not around,
hurm,
u said we still can chat at fb ?
u online u also wont find me ?
so i dont tink we will chat,
u dont have to find me laa,
haihh,
i noe i gonna miss u lots ;')
i love u :(

UKM

went to UKM ;)
i really thought i can forget everything About u :)
how stupid !
i went there, day and night i was waiting ur msgs,
how much do i have to cry ?
how can i make u stay ?
i have fun a lot over there,
but my mind and heart is not in the camp at all,
i know for u is diff,
u dont even mind.. mayb u do?
i dont know,
becux u never show :)
first dy when i reached,
i already become popular :)
becux when the president asked " who can lead for girls "
and yeahh, my name is been called up ;)
and later another vice president gave speeches abt UKM life,
u know wat ? he looks exactly like u MFMF ;')
everywhr i go,
i will c u !
why ?
in the night we have ice breaking, its cool ;)
we play group booming ! ^_^
the guy who looks like u keep disturb and play wit me :)
hehe,
i am sick tht night,
so i went and sleep at 12am,
i am the earliest among all my friends,
they r making noise but i am sleeping like theres no tomorrow ^_^
second day,
wake up early, exercise wit them and chicken dance too ;)
but he did not come in the morning,
i wanted to c him so much,
juz becux he looks like u,
after tht we had breakfast and we kumpul at the same place,
and later i went to toilet and she locked me inside,
the door was spoiled,
i am locked abt 6 to 7mins,
i keep shouting,
one of the faci rescued me ;)
thanks to him !
but i cried badly and i was very down becux i was too scared,
we did play water games,
in the night got like mlm kebudayaan ;)
i acted,
everyone laughed at my jokes ^_^
feel proud,
he was everywhere i went,
i am actually same group wit him,
but i did not wan ^_^
becux u r still in my mind,
i have lots of fun there !
all the kakak and abang very nice to me,
second day was the last night,
two kakak n him sent me back to my hostel,
i dont have to walk,
heeeee :)
he talked to me alot alot :)
and in a moment i feel it was like u talking to me,
but i told myself its not u,
third day is the day we had to go back ^_^
i talked for the majlis penutup becuz they ask for pandangan,
and i talked !
they r impress ;)
my group won number 2 ^_^
weeeee <3
nice camping ;)

:)

i did not wait for u ystrdy ;)
becux i know msgs woul not come :')
i slept at 8.30pm,
and woke up around 7.30am,
means i slept for 11 hours :)
9 more days to go <3
i am sry tht i wont be by ur side to care u anymore,
i am still in love wit u,
hurmm,
good luck in ur test today my boy :)
u sure can do it ^_^
xoxo
i will pray for u :)

i wan to call u dear :'( how ?

tsk tsk :')
happy day !
now is 6.09am,
wooo,
and i am blogging in the morning ;)
first time when i wake up,
i THINK about YOU,
:) ,
how sweet is ur smile tht always melts me ^_^
hehehe,
good morning dear :)

hmmph, cried again last night

its a day be4 i gonna take my muet exams :'(
i cried, hmmph :(
u told me u need spaces,
i didnt know tht i reli did so bad whenni enter ur life,
11 more days and i wont be around,
u will be happy and free,
i know i am a bored person,
i dont know how to cheer u,
i will wake up from my mistakes :)
hope everything will be alright,
i juz wanna say,
i really do care every liltle single thing u do or done,
:')
<3
for all,
i wan to say,
i starts to LOVE u,
i dont wanna lose u,
so, u take care.

1day

without u one day texting me,
its like last time u told me,
sad and bored,
:)
it really happens to me,
i only can wait u to msg me :)
i <3 u

these few days i juz get to chat wit u :/

i get to chat wit u in FB,
for like not even 5 mins?
when u said bye,
tears rolling down from my cheek,
i feel so pain,
even u said 'nnt i msg u'
i know u wont,
becux u hate me :(
i should dissapear :(
my heart is broken,
i will heal it back.

i am been saying sry to u :'(

i am sry,
today ur fren keep asking me whether i wit u got anything ?
i told him tht i dont like u,
:')
eventhough it is very pain to say tht,
i have to ;')
all becux of u,
u wanted it to be like this,
me...
i am very pain too,
i hurt more than u do,
u never even find me anymore ;'(
ok la,
good night.
i cried again :(
very pain

karaoke !

went karaoke juz now wit a bunch of friends,
i feel so good when i get to sing :)
its like all the problems r not there,
teehee ;)
well,
i remember u said i am a happy go lucky person!
do u still remember ?
and yahh,
its true actually ;)
when i got to chat wit u,
i feel more happy,
its nature,
i cant do anything,
but please forgive me if i have done anything wrong ok ?
sry once again ^_^

i am here to say sry !

i dont know whether u will read it or not,
i am sry if i hurt u,
i didnt know u wil be hurt,
hurm,
i am sry,
but i really want u to stay right beside me,
dont leave,
and dont tht u will hurt,
i am sry,
thankd for forgiving me,
i appreciate it ^_^
i am really sry for wat happen be4,
i need u.

actually...........

i appreciates u alot ;)
even u tell me u still confuse,
i will wait ;)

guitar :)

lame daa xmain gitar utk u dgr :')
i nk main lg,
u nk dgr x ?
hehe,
rindu nk ckp dlm fon,
dgr suara u ;)

OLD MESSAGES

yerrr ;p
when i read back my old messages wit u,
i feel so funny,
only certain i keep,
happy tho !
haha,
u'r so funny !
stay like last time ;)